okay,now its my time to confess.

truly inspired by nadia,inka and arinda

lets just start by 10 facts.

1.Gue pusing sama rambut gue yang rontok.i've tried a lot of stuff but it doesn't seem like its getting better.

2.I am so concerned about my health.(if you know what i mean)

3.Belom nemu tempat bimbel yang bener bener pas,padahal bentar lagi udah mau UAN

4.SAT sama TOEFL gue apa kabar?udah TOEFL ga belajar,SAT juga ogah2 an.

5.Pusing buat apply ke uni.gue tau mungkin ga ribett,mungkin gara gara dikejar deadline aja gue jadi sangat teramat panik

6.BERAT GUE NAIK DAN GA TURUN TURUN LAGI

7.i miss the joy of dancing,like seriously.

8.i want to celebrate xmas with joy and laughter,not with excessive drama and guilt.

9.I REALLLLLLLYYYY want to graduate

10.I am currently feeling guilty.I am simply caught up in my own game.

sori ga penting.

xo

;(

i thought being 18 would become much easier.i' m definitely wrong.
i know im not supposed to run away,but somehow im having some difficulties in collecting my strength.i tend to procrastinate,and this is what i get in return.Now all of my scattered problems have somehow became bigger and bigger.i cant give up.

I cant hardly wait!

today is friday. Friday= Soulnation day! i am sooooooooooo excited!

YAY! :)

Guess what i got for my 18th birthday........

A SIDEKICK!OH MY GOODNESS!MY FAVORITE CELLPHONE OF ALL TIME :D i have been dreaming to have this cellphone since 7th grade and it FINALLY CAME TRUE!Thank God :)

i have to get my hands on these!

Gabe Bondoc, my all time favorite singer/guitarist designed a tshirt named "Gabe the Giraffe".I just checked out their website and i am soooo psyched!unfortunately,the store doesn't do shipping to Indonesia,so i guess i'll just wait for my mom in december :) This'll be the coolest birthday present ever! :D

xx,
tiffany

one more thing that i'd like to spend big bucks on

tiba-tiba laper cuy

gimana mau kurus,tiff?

my newest wish

My cousin just got this for his birthday present,and i want one as well :)
Besides shoes, i've always had a thing for games, game consoles and other geeky stuff that you can imagine.But this thing is just perfect!

One of my favorite bible verses of all time

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight."

Proverbs 3:5-6

my life has been going downhill.Or at least that's what another part of me wants to think.I don't really know how to say it,to be exact.But as far as i'm concerned,these past few weeks hasn't been easy.Somebody i know once said,"if you still have doubts after you pray,it means you haven't prayed.because you you have to fully believe in your heart that He already has the best plan for you." so i did pray,and whenever im really close to giving up,and loosing faith,this verse always pops out of nowhere and gives me strength to keep the faith and believe that everything will eventually be alright.Thankyou ;)

r u really indonesian (copied from denok)

1. Your stomach growls when you don't eat rice for a day. :)
2. You believe kecap ABC could turn bad cooking to gourmet food.
3. You know more than 10 acronyms/abbreviations.
4. You talk during a movie.
5. You use a dipper instead of toilet paper in the bathroom.
6. You eat fried rice in the morning.
7. You prefer seven jeans or true religion jeans over Gap or Levi's.
8. You don't think Jim Carrey is funny.
9. You think Onky Alexander is a hunk.
10. You think Rhoma Irama is kampungan.
11. You carry a 16 oz. jar of sambal to where ever you travel.
12. Driving a car that is cheaper than $15,000 embarrasses you.
13. You think dangdut is stupid, but listen to it anyway, because you are homesick.
14. You are willing to travel 25 miles to buy tahu and tempeh.
15. You are "Dreaming of a WARM Christmas".
16. Your local McDonald's serves rice and sambal.
17. You think Super Mie is a staple food.
18. You have ever tried passing a Rp 50 coin as a quarter in a US vending machine or pay phone.
20. You have ever successfully bribed a customs officer.
21. When watching TV you regularly find that all the channels broadcast the same thing.
22. You do your shopping in Singapore.
23. Your drivers license claims you are 5 years older then you really are.
24. You have ever legally bought pirated software or VCDs.
25. You have ever been forced to memorize UUD'45.
26. You have bought something from a barefooted street peddler.
27. You know exactly how many islands Indonesia has.
28. You have ever eaten something sold off a cart on wheels.
29. You realized that money is everything before you were six.
30. The first thing that comes to mind when hearing the word "Jakarta" is "macet".
31. Someone you know has ever ridden on top of a train.
32. Your daily commute includes thinking up new ways to ride the city bus for free.
33. You don't mind people being late.
34. You think standing in line is a waste of time.
35. You have tried every Monday of your youth trying to avoid upacara bendera.
36. You have used a mosquito repellent that looks like a coil and is lit on one end.
37. You use the terms "Ni yee", "cai-lah" and "Ih, jijay" on daily basis.
38. You know what Pancasila is, what it means and know it by heart.
39. You complain that movies in America don't have sub-titles.
40. Your daily conversation may include enactments of TV commercials.
41. You have ever consulted a dukun.
42. Your whole class has ever cheated on a test, and gotten away with it.
43. You have ever spent the night before an exam looking for someone who sells the questions.
44. You like the smell of terasi.
45. You think the Thomas Cup is equal to the Super Bowl.
46. You can name a manufacturer of shuttlecocks and badminton birdies.
47. You have a 16' satellite dish hidden in your back yard.
48. You have ever ridden in a motor vehicle with three wheels.
49. You miss your maid on laundry day.
50. Your clothing has brand names printed on it that are visible from 50' away.
51. You attend weddings only until you are done eating.
52. You have attended weddings that you are not invited to.
53. You go to McDonald's to get your weekly supply of ketchup, salt, pepper and napkins.
54. You know more than one music group that stole the tune of Cranberries' "Zombie".
55. You have a can of Baygon on your kitchen table.
56. You make major decisions based on gengsi.
57. You take advantage of Wal-Mart's 30-day money-back guarantee to "borrow" home appliances.
58. Someone in your family has extra pockets in his outfit to hide cookies from the all-you-can-eat bar.
59. You have paid more than $1,000 to get your name on your license plate.
60. You carry your hand phone always, even to a 'no service' area.
61. You think bribery as a 'tip in advance'.
62. You think of the road as a place to park.
63. You fly Garuda just to get to know the stewardesses.
64. You send your kids to US & Australia just so they can go to school.
65. You go to a park and drink 'teh botol'.
66. You travel to L.A or Sydney from Jakarta more than 3 times a year.
67. You mix soccer and boxing at the same time.
68. You consume more cloves in your cigarettes than in your food..
69. You have more credit cards than your wallet can hold.
70. You have a car with 20' wheel.
71. You work for the government to get rich quick.
72. Your friends in the US & Australia refer to you as their 'Indonesian connection.'
73. You have been to a motel that can 'hide' your car.
74. You give guests a roll of toilet paper or a box of facial tissues to wipe their hands after eating.
75. You are very good at avoiding potholes and other road hazards.
76. Hate it when you use local made product.
77. You think Soekarno is the greatest Indonesian President.

SOURCE: "I am an Indonesian or lived in Indonesia too long" group on facebook!

from 21082005

Today is my 4th year anniversary!woot woot
i cant believe that today's finally the day :) ive been looking forward to today since...last month!To tell you the truth,i honestly didn't see this coming at all so this is like a total blessing to finally reach the fourth year with him.Who knew that we would make a decent couple?

As for further celebrations,i dont think we're going to make any big ones.One of my junior high friends is having her 17th birthday bash,and this is going to be like this really huge birthday party so i guess we'll just celebrate there and have dinner somewhere afterwards :)

i cant believe today's the day!i am soooo psycheeed!!!
gotta go dress up for the party guys.im out <3

xoxo

this really sucks.

So i failed my business studies exam.BIG DEAL.
So i paid money thats worth it to spend for killer heels.BIG DEAL.
So i didn't score that much for my SAT.BIG DEAL.

im completely stressed out people.
i better figure out something to improve,pronto!

3 things that im currently obsessed with.

1.Gabe bondoc (but not in a creepy kind of way)His beautiful voice and touching lyrics has totally made me head over heels.not to mention his skills at playing guitar.this guy is just really awesome.Since he's been performing in almost all over the us,hopefully i'll get the chance to watch one of his shows next year :)


2. This second habit started happening when there was this really big trend of fro-yos thats happening in jakarta.Suddenly people wasnt interested in buying jco donuts or bread talk anymore,they want froyos.i know,weird.Im actually not a big fan of froyo's myself but after i tasted heavenly blush's pomegranate yogurt,i totally fell in love <3>

3.Since i discovered Cecily von Ziegesar's first series,the first gossip girl (with blair and serena in it) i just became addicted to it and since then i always have to read the next book.I know that its sort of a bitchy story with no meaning in it,but still....its really entertaining:p

hello.

haven't been able to post anything in particular lately.i guess i just sorta ran out of ideas.to tell you the truth,i dont really like to write stuff,i just like to read 'em.I know that there's a lot that's been going on lately,but i just cant figure out which one to write on.lets just hope that i'll come up with something useful in the next post,so that my blog will be less-pathetic.

ciao

back with a ranodm post

what song has captured your mind lately?
taylor swift-love song

what tv show do you catch regularly?
friends :)

what book really has lately engaged you?
falling under-i forgot the name of the author

what movies do you find yourself re-watching?
facing the giants,blades of glory

has someone in your life become a new and surprising friend?
nope,not yet

is there a book/film/piece of music from your childhood you still have?
a series from the golden books :)

what place is your hiding place?
my room

do you collect anything? if so what?
shoes!

what beverage is a daily consumable for you?
water and camomile tea

what store or shop do you frequent the most?
periplus,zara,and gramedia

are you a creature of habit?
hahaha sort of

what is your favourite animal?

rabbits and cats

are you obsessed with pink?
nah,not really

i just melted

yes people,his name is gabe bondoc.and guess what?he's PINOY!absolutely my type :)check out his several performances on youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmHBu-pncmA&feature=channel

I Screwed up.Big time.

Seriously,i did screw up pretty bad on my SAT test,and this is not just a random tryout,its the real TEST.But there's nothing left to dow now except to keep on thinking positive,keep on praying and hope for the best.

Agak iri.haha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FoIOq6VvcM

ide untuk kue ulangtahun

medium

kalo ini yang small

gila,gw laper bangeeeeeeeeeetttt

belikan aku ini dong!

all of the heels are from givenchy,except for the one on the top,thats from aldo.Ada yang bersedia?

The perfect song that could lift me up these days.

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep goingAnd I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb'

Keep the faith
Keep your faith
Whoa a oh oh


---the climb (Miley Cyrus)

keep your faith,tiff :)

Gosh,how i love the holidays......

this is a perfect idea of spending my holiday.I deserve a break.Sort of.

Greetings

HAPPY ASCENSION DAY EVERYONE!

GOD BLESS:)

Q&A's

What is your current obsession?
the new sidekick LX 2009 :D
What are you wearing today?
my brown school uniform
What’s for dinner today?
I dunno,its still 10 30 am
What would you like to learn to do?
To dance and do gymnastics
What’s the last thing you bought?
A chicken kebab
What are you listening to right now?
My sociology teacher's voice and laughter from the boys in my class.
What is your favorite weather?
Spring and Winter
What is your most challenging goal right now?
Getting a good score on my A levels and SAT (please God please)
If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
Washington dc,Italy or Switzerland
What would you like to have in your hands right now?
A sidekick.
If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Washingon DC,manila
Which language do you want to learn?
French
Who do you want to meet in person?
Chris evans!
What’s your favorite type of music?
I'm a little bit of everything
What is your dream job?
I dunno yet
Any favorite models?
heidi klum and tyra banks
If you had £100 now what would you spend it on?
a ticket to see my mom,please.

sob

not in my 4 years of relationship ive ever felt this miserable.........okay so maybe i had,but i just simply forgot.4 years is quite a long time you know,ga mungkin gue itungin berapa kali gue berantem satu satu kan.males banget.

well the point is im just posting because i cant find any other alternative to cheer me up.Just crying in my bed while eating chocolates just doesnt make any sense and will make me fatter as well so i'd rather just write anything that i want since nobodys gonna read this stupid posting anyway.

We got into a fight,we shouted at each other and......... we broke up.I know this happens a lot to me but this time the situations just not right.Im going to have my exam soon and i just cant deal with too much drama.So,to cheer me up,im trying to imagine the best-case-scenarios that would possibly happen in the next 15 minutes or so...

option no 1.
After i hung up the phone,he will call back and just say how sorry he is and we will get back together
option no 2.
A few minutes after im typing this,he will appear in front of my house and apologize and i will apologize as well and we will just get back together like nothing happened (please God let this one happen)
.....................................................
....................................................
nah,its not happening so far so i better not hope too much
option no 3.
.....I dont know.I just want option no.2 to happen.

please please please

please please please

an addiction.

so beautiful,yet so unreachable.

you still mesmerize me for so many years.

i know that im not allowed to do this,but sometimes you still make me forget about everything,making me unable to think about anything else.

God,i gotta put myself together.

my current obsession.

Goodness,youre so gorgeous.

i need a dose of optimism.

havent been posting anything in particular lately.Just loads of crap and random stuff that is obviously not important.The world has been revolving too fast around me and i need a freakin break.I feel like my whole world is crumbling to pieces,and turning into this absolute mess.I dont know why but i just feel like this is one of the difficult stages that i have to get through in my life.Can anybody please help me solve out this feat?

targets that has to be accomplished.

1.LOOSE WEIGHT.ive been looking like a fat cow lately (not to be exaggerating) ive gained another 3 kgs and i have to really stop eating.All this chocolate covered pretzel munching without any amount of exercise has my stomach into this really huge...thing.its not that im not greatfull for His blessings,but i just need to change some of my eating habbits.

2.STUDY FOR THE A-LEVEL EXAMS.enough said,its already the 15th of april and unless i want to pay another 1,5 million rupiahs,i have to move my lazy ass and start to look for past papers and additional materials.

3.STUDY FOR THE SAT.my score hasnt increased in quite a while.One of my seniors already got accepted in GWU,and some of my friends managed to get a 2000 something,so i better get moving and studyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy


AARRRRGHHHHH.please excuse my ways of writing,maybe some flaws of broken english here and there.im just having a random stressed-out moment.thankyou

apology

i know i've been acting so shitty and crappy for the past month.To tell you the truth,i dont even know whats actually gotten into me.So for the people whose feelings that ive hurt,im deeply thruthfully sorry..(please excuse the broken english.im just not really in the mood to actually think about the grammar) I know maybe i havent shown a sign of change from my attitude,but honestly,i'm really trying my best.So i hope you guys could understand.I really dont want to loose or even ruin our kinship that we have created.And although for some of you who felt that i've already ruin that bond,trust me,i didnt mean to.please oh pretty please accept my apology,just as like other people,im trying to change to be a better human being.thank you :)

inconstant ambivalent-ness

I cant keep my feelings straight.A lot of things have been running in and out of my mind lately.

Just 10 minutes ago,when i was listening to my music player that i put on shuffle,it suddenly played one of my favorite songs that i always loved in the whole world: angel -by jack johnson ,followed by ordinary people by john legend.Just a nanosecond after the song started i started to think back,reminiscing the old times,the old wonderful times,where i could still break free and do whatever i want to do,the old times where i could do whatever i want to do,the old times that kept most of my unforgettable memories,Good or bad,Big or small,Important or Unimportant.The relationships that i've been through,All of my friends that i met...New friends...Old childhood friends that suddenly started to reappear out of nowhere...Former enemies that suddenly had turned into some of my closest friends.I know i usually take things for granted,but today i felt like i've learned about an important lesson in life.Live your life to the fullest and make sure that you always make the best of it every single day,because you never know what will happen to you in the days to come.

hectic

pet society is getting pretty boring so while everybody's busy on facebook,tagging their pictures and chatting the day away i decided to write a new post.The problem is,i dunno what to tell u guys about.I know that there wouldn't be anyone who is gonna read my stupid blog anyway,so i might as well write anything that i want.First things first.Here's what happened in the past two months.

1.Petra and Yoan' s sweet 17 birthday bash.They're both turning seventeen,They're both my best friends,and their birthdays are held in the same day.And the same time.7 pm.But in a different venue,Petra's Birthday is held in tamani,located in north jakarta,and yoan' s birthday is held in caza suki,located in central jakarta.And im invited to both of the parties.As i said before,both are my best friends so i have to attend both of their parties.Fortunately,despite jakarta's unbearable traffic,i managed to get to both parties equally..YAAAY :D

2.the SAT's......the oh-so-fun SAT...T_T.Spending your saturday morning,for five hours studying critical reading and writing essays and solving math equations isn't really my kind of thing.But since i am going to continue my studies abroad,i better concentrate on this thing as well.or else....

3.Daniel's birthday:D i know it didn't happen just like i imagined it would be like (just like last year) but it turned out to be quite alright.All his friends were there and we had fun.Thanks to his brother and his friends who helped me to set up the surprise...

4.Random meetings,cathecism classes,and choir practices that i have to attend...

I really dont know when will i study for the A level exam that is in 3 more months.With this hectic schedule going on,i barely have time to relax,let alone to study for business.....hmm lets just hope that things will eventually get better.

cheerio,
tiffany

another random post

happy (belated) valentine's day everyone!
i didnt have a plan to go anywere at first,so when i decided that i really wanted to have dinner at someplace after all,it turned out that most of our favorite restaurant's are all fully booked:( i know its totally last minute,cant blame them anyway...
Hmm i also dont prefer going to malls in this time of day.I know that it'll be bloody crowded with couples in matching probably white or black or pink and blue t-shrits.So i ended up spending my precious time at home,told daniel to stop by for a few hours,watched dvd and went online to google for stupid websites about love stories and love quotes.hahaha totally dry and corny i know,but we had fun :D

speaking of yesterday,i also did the 3rd trial test.I know that i did better in the math section (surprisingly) but im not so sure about the critical reading,sentence correction and the essay section.I still havent reached my goal to earn my desired score.Im still considered an amateur in this kind of stuff.There's still 900 points to go!

By the way,i think im sort of losing my touch.I dont know why,but i feel like some of my skills that i used to have are dissapearing into this big black hole.maybe i just have to brush my skills.But still,there's this really big negative aura circling around me.You guys might obviously know about this aura that im talking about (LAZINESS) :(

im starting to feel hungry.Gotta go.

(sorry for the randomness,just wanted to pour my unstable emotions)

the cutest thing ever;; a must-see!

Today at school nadia told me to check out my messages,she said that she left me a message about a link that sells cute earings,she said i might like it.So i went online straight away and checked it out..Nadia was right!!!!!Fyi,i am a really big fan of accesories that involves food like food stickers,food keychains and any kind of plastic-food-product that you could describe (i know its a bit freakish,but thats how it is. :P) When the loading finished it turned out to be an online shop!!!and they sell these really cute accesories that are totally unique and 1 of a kind.

here are the pictures!!

this one is my personal favorite!!i dont know why,but i just cant take my eyes of it :) <3>

I was going to order this one,but they sold out..sob ;(

This one is also irresistable.I think im going to buy the 3 of them!teehee ;9 ;9

by the way,if theres anyone of you who's interested,i'll leave the link for you to check it out.

http://www.friendster.com/photos/54628689/1/901719673#pic=2405523161747914204

enjoy!

hugs and kisses,

tiffany

my new blabla (copied from inka)

New hobbies (i think inka typed about 13 but im just gonna put in 10)

1.Main pet society
2.cengin the-new-it-couple yang baru jadian
3.Main TTC (teka teki cinta) sama dp
4.baca the shopaholic series
5.pinjem-pinjeman buku sama arinda & sabila
6.Berenang di arcici sama sabila
7.cari gambar2 makanan di google(i know this is a bit freakish tapi ya sudahlah)\
8.Cari gambar high heels buat di pesen di google
9.latihan dance setelah berhenti selama 2 tahun
10.maksa2 raja buat nambah cheat pet so gue :p

random

mood:pissed off.
current song :Bubbly.

how come everyone around me has been acting like a jerk lately?are they all having a serious case of PMS of something?From somebody who never keeps his promise to me,to somebody who doesnt even have the time to talk to me anymore.they're all turning into major weirdo's.
hhm i guess this meltdown will keep on happening,on and off until (estimately) for the next two weeks.Geez,my blog is becoming more random everytime i try to write a new friggin post.
Fine,i'll just try to write something thats not too inconsequential today (but probably still useless)

here are the 10 things that ive been thinking about today :

1.I'm so pathetic,i suck at the things i (used to ) do.maybe i have to brush up my skills.but is 2 weeks enough?
2.I'm a bit hungry,i want to eat.but i dont want to keep on putting excess fat into my already fat body.
3.How am i going to increase my SAT score? I know it already increased for like 50 points,but still,its not enough to get into the uni's that i want.
4.I still cant believe i passed my math IGCSE ;)
5.i'm a little tired,just got home from my SAT prep.Maybe i should take a nap after i write this post.
6.Im still having dilemmas about where should i be confirmed.Paulus or Maranatha?help mee GOD!
7.I'm a little dubious about the decision that i made yesterday.Do i really want to take the A LEVEL in BUSINESS STUDIES?but i signed the form anyway,so might as well keep my word about it.
8.Something is a little bit wrong about my voice.Pleease dont let this happen.Im supposed to sing at my friends 17th birthday bash this friday.
9.When will daddy teach me how to drive?!?! im already 17 for goodness' sake.
10.I miss my mom.beyond measure.


im really tired.for real.over and out.
-tiffany.

bzzt

mood:exlpoding
current song:i dont even cufkin care anymore.

Just finished dance practice with my Junior High friends,for the 21st.I was supposed to go out to some place with my cousin but since there's a weirdo coming along,id rather stay at home than meet and see her face.i really dont want to meet the uninvited guest.You know,im sort of exhausted,i feel like bursting so i dont want to make a scene and explode during a so called family dinner.as if.Ah well.i dont even freakin care.staying at home and pouring all my feelings in this stupid post is way way better.

the desire.

mood:like an hourglass(keeps on changing every minute)
current song:lovebug,the jonas brothers.

i just saw the pictures of one of my 2nd degree friends that is currently living in the us;It was titled KBRI,because i was curious i clicked the open button straight away so i could see whats inside it.When the loading completed i finally saw all of the pictures and i was caught in awe for a slight second.Okay,not a second.A while.The Indonesian embassy is also located in DC,so i was obviously wanted to be in her position.In DC.The city which i obviously miss.The city where im going to finally break free and get new adventures.The things that im giving up,im sacrificing now,is for the sake of getting a chance to live in that city.To finally reunite with half of my family whom i havent met for ages,especially to reunite with my best friend,mom."whatever youre doing now,will determine what will you receive in the future.."those words that i received from her keeps on ringing in my head,over and over and over again.And that is creeping me out.Could i overcome such difficult obstacles?Could i finally reached the thing that i always dreamed of?I dont know the answers to my own future,i can only hope for the best and let God's plan just flow and lead me to its destination.

my ego is bigger than my hips.

Yes,indeed.
For you who has seen me for over 100000 times,You might obviously know how big are my hips.And i finally had a conclusion about how selfish and contemptuous i can be.Especially in these kind of times,when im already allowed to make my own decisions.But the guilt always comes and creeps me out afterwards.oookaay ookay fiine.i finally already know which one to pick.Its better to get rid of our stupid ego and try to put ourselves in their shoes.Okay im sorry.I hope i passed my test towards being a mature -er -er-er girl.

a misuse of time.

hello there.Im not supposed to be posting right now because im at school but i got kinda fired up because i accidentally read this blog about some lady who degrades our own program(please excuse my emotions).If you dont mind,i'd like to say a few things.

before i continue,i'm not posting this to choose a regular or international side,im just expressing the positive things that i felt as a student in an national plus curriculum.so chillax,no offense :)

1.Please,pretty please dont think that spending your money on an international program is a total waste.Because it isn't.Its worthwhile and you get to learn and experience a lot of things that you dont learn everyday

2.Being in a curriculum like this makes us receive the best of both worlds,you get two certificaates.You get to experience stuff from a state school,but you also could experience stuff as an international student,from the other curriculum.I't takes extra hard work,but once you succeed it feels like a breath of fresh air.teeheee:P

3.So what if i want to get an international curriculum and international education?Does it mean because im not a resident from a foreign country,i cant get an international curriculum?GET REAL.It's globalization and im 100% sure if you cant cooperate and work together with people from all over the world with different backgrounds and diffrent attitudes you wont succeed in life.

4.We're not that exclusive.We still pay our school tuition with RUPIAH,not with $.

I appreciate your very wise opinions but please,you may be smarter,you may be wiser,you may have a higher education than us,u may be older,but if you havent experienced being a student in a national plus curriculum BY YOURSELF ,please dont judge us just by using your partial knowledge.Try opening your eyes and see the positive sides as well,not just by saying bad things about it.Thanks.

my current obsessions

1.I want to graduate highschool with a certificate in:
a.Business studies (A level)
b.Economics (As level)
c.English language (As level) (i know that's too much,but hey,nothings impossible.riiiight?)
d.Indonesian (A level)
*and those national certificates that you get when you complete UAN and UAS as well.

2.I want my SAT to increase until at least 1900.please.I'm tired of being the dumbest in my SAT prep class.please please pretty pleaasee ;(

3.I want to move to D.C asap.I know i'll miss my friends and family and all,but part of me is excited to start a new adventure in life!Besides,almost all of my relatives from my mothers side lives in the US and i havent seen them for ages!it must be a blast to completely meet them again!!

4.I want Mr X and Ms Y to reunite and be together again (you know who they are folks)

5.I want to finally decide on what i want and what im finally going to do

6.I want to attend a dance class (again) since i quit my dance extracuricular thingie i've been really unhealthy and keep on getting headaches and tummyaches

------random obsessions----you dont have to pay much attention to this one.

7.I want to get a sidekick
8.I want to get accepted to my chosen university
9.I want to loose weight
10.I want to have a pair of designer heels
11.I want to look good in a dress
12.I want to learn tagalog.What kind of filipino am i?for not knowing my own language?
13.I want to go to Europe.


there.i'll add the list as soon as i have more obsessions to achieve.

ciao

miracles do exist! :)

saturday,january 24th 2009,08 50 am(yes,i want to remember this moment forever)
mood : HAPPY!!!!

before i start,today's daddy's birthday.happy birthday daddy :)



i got good news..


I FINALLY PASSED MY IGCSE EXAAAAMMMM!!!!!!!!

i got a D in math and E in biology.THIS IS SUPER FREAKING COOL!!!
i was so surprised because at first when i saw the result sheet,my math score wasnt there..And some of my teachers told me to wait for Ms.Shinta because she's the one who has the original copy...and it turned out that i got a D in math!!
Before i bore you to death here's how the system goes..
when you get the result,the highest score is A* and the lowest score is U.So there's A,B,C,D,E,F,G,and U.i Know its a bit weird but this is how it is.

So getting a D in math isn't so bad after all :) because this is also my retake test and one of the teachers said that students who do the retake test usually gets a G or an F (if his/her score before is a U) but i got a D!And for someone like me,getting a D in maths is considered like a miracle!

i'm still speechless....this is beyond my imagination :D :D

turned out that it will be one of my best moments in life after all ;D


Thank you God,for giving me this miracle..I love you and i'll try my best to do better and better!

Gotta go,i have my SAT prep in 45 minutes..

over and out.

-tiffany

ef-e-a-are

Thursday,09 00 pm
Mood : anxious.


It all started like this.Sometime around yesterday,Yoan told me that Mr edo already saw the results of our freakin IGCSE exam.The exam that i totally blew off a few months ago.But she doubted it and she said that all this isn't exactly true.I breathe a sigh of relief.But this morning i found out that all the stuff that yoan told me yesterday is actually FOR REAL.THE EXAMS RESULTS ARE REALLY OUT.OVER HERE IN INDONESIA.breathe tiff..breathe..
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Yes,they did say that the results are already published in indonesia,but its still very private and confidential so only a few teachers could see it.But still,its just the matter of time.This 2 weeks will either be one of the most happiest week of my life..........or not.It depends.lets just see what comes next.

stay tuned folks.
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GOD,please give me a miracle.i need Your help.


-tiffany

heart-breaking (kerjaan iseng anak smp)

sunday,10 14 pm
mood:sleepy
current song :the whitest boy alive-burning.

haha guess what i found guys!!

i think it was about 1 and a half years ago.one time i was really desperate about my relationship,and if im not mistaken,we were really super duper close to breaking up.and i was really confused and stuff so i decided to pour all of my feelings in a poem/lyric or whatever you may call it..and i accidentaly found that abandoned piece of paper today!!!(Gila gue sendiri aja kaget pas bacanya!where did i get all those inspirations and creativity juices from to create those kind of sentences??and those words really did rhyme hahahaha)

so here goes...............

december 10th 2007,22 26 pm

Although every lyric that i hear reminds me of you
I'll try to sing a different song
because i want to forget about you
Though i dont know if its the right way,that i belong (bagian ini ngaco abis sumpah.)

Some say we are meant to be together
We're a perfect match
But i say this cant last forever
And thats the word they cant seem to catch

I've known you well,you've known me better
But it doesnt mean we have to be together
So you go on yours,and i"ll go on mine
Who knows that now its time for us to shine

I care for you,i wish you well
So at the end of this i say my farewell
Take care of yourself,stay true to your heart
I'll always remember you,though we're miles apart..

-tiffany



(maaf ya kalau ada kesalahan grammar,maklum lah hehe)
**But it turned out that we didn't break up after all,and we're still together for almost 3 and a half years:D:D:D

ciee gue

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wednesday,07 50 pm
mood : queasy
current song playing :lovebug-jonas brothers.

My stomach feels like its going to explode any second.I'm supposed to have my no-junkfood-day but it was so tempting,and i just couldnt resist to have just a sip of coke and a small order of french fries.........so i ordered myself a chicken sandwich,upsized the friench fries and ate so fast till i was out of breath (fyi,i was just done studying pure maths,it was so tiring.and it was time to eat anyway :P ) Geez my topics are becoming lamer and and lamer everytime i write a new post.Lets just find another topic............

nah,i got nothing.just give me a second.i'll write again as soon as i already have something to write about

im out.

major dilemma

tuesday,10 10 pm
mood:hyper
current song :jamie cullum,these are the days

almost everybody in my class are having dilemmas about what are they going to major in for college,which college or university will they go to,and even envisioning themselves in 5 or 10 years later.I honestly cant imagine what will i be like in 5 more years,i'm even still waiting for my freakin IGCSE results which are crucially important.That piece of paper is going to have a great impact on how am i going to do in the future.Urgh i cant even imagine how bad will my math exam be(again).But i also cant be undecided,i dont want be a last-minute type of person who decides about what major that he/she wants to take in 3 days before.So here's what i've got so far:

1.Business : haha i dont know where did i got the inspiration but it feels kind of cool to be an entrepreneur :D i'd love to have my own company someday...

2.Pschology: since i've experienced a lot of ups and downs last year,i became really interested to find out about what's been hiding in the minds of the people who changed into someone that i dont recognize anymore..you know who.

3.Int'l relations : it would be really fun if i followed the footsteps of my grandpa:D he seemed to have a blast working as a consul overseas...

ah gaya lo tif.hasil IGCSE aja belom keluar udah belagu.

But i guess there's nothing wrong to dream.Siapa tau jadi kenyataan kan ya gaa sih.

AMIN!

vocabs,randomness,and late night sandwiches.

Monday, 08.45 pm
mood:inept
current song:jamie cullum,everlasting love

so here's some vocabs that just popped out from my SAT prep book.I know it sorta sounds like gibberish,but as surprised as i am,these words really do exsist.

1. TURPITUDE(n) :Inherent baseness or vileness of principle, words, or actions; shameful wickedness; depravity. (Goodness,i dont even know the meaning of depravity.)
*depravity(n) :The state of being depraved or corrupted; a vitiated state of moral character; general badness of character; wickedness of mind or heart; absence of religious feeling and principle.

2. SACROSANCTITY(adj) :–adjective
(a)extremely sacred or inviolable: a sacrosanct chamber in the temple.
(b)not to be entered or trespassed upon: She considered her home office sacrosanct.

hmph.so now i know how stupid i am.Look on the bright side,at least i learned some new words.

life has been so hectic,and i bet it will be even more stressfull in two or three months later.the SAT test,the AS level exam.All these stuff has deceptively jumbled my mind.and tearing it to pieces.i dont know when is this going to stop.Those fuvckn video games had made me become dumber and dumber as i am today.i have to stop being so ridiculously stupid and stand up on my own two feet (not litterally).My body is also getting fatter and fatter each day.Darn it.I better control my appetite or else i'll become a living couch.It's not that i dont like fat-ness or being fat.i like eating,i really do,and i dont usually control my appetite.But since i quit on all of my activities (that includes exercising) like tennis and swimming and dancing,i gained like so much pounds.I also cant stop having late night snacks whenever i feel tired or stressed out.It's just so relaxing and it always lifts up my mood.Its getting late,i better go back to studying :D

ciao

2008 WRAP UP

hey people

i know it's sort of too late to make these kind of postings since its already 2009 but since most of my friends are posting resolution notes,reminiscing stupid and retarded yet memorable and unforgettable stuff,so i decided to make one myself:)
whoa,where should i start?there's just to much memories to think of.i think i'm starting to burst into tears any minute now.

This past year has been like a stupendous roller coaster.I've had ton's of problems(although i had better times as well,of course.),made new friends,learned new stuff and also tried to see and solve the problems i had in a better way.Overall i think that i did a pretty good job.I know i'm still fragile and vulnerable but thanks to the people around me i learned to be a better human being,inside and outside.If nadia's song for 08 is miss independent then mine will be "fighter" by christina aguilera hahaha

untuk yang PERTAMA dan TERUTAMA.God almighty,Thank you for all of the endless and uncountable blessing's that you have given me,for giving me everything that i need and for knowing what's good for me....

For those who taught me how to survive and how to be strong by letting me fall so that i could learn to get up by myself and and to face my problems instead of running away,i never ever regretted that i had you in my life. i thank you for everything,at least now i learned to keep myself together,and i also got tougher,thank God.

For those who taught me the meaning of friendship,always being there,loving me through all my flaw,accepting me as who i am,tried to get rid of my bad habits,and helped me to face the tough times that i've had.Words can't ever describe how much i appreciate and love you guys,i dont know how i'm gonna repay you for all of the wonderful things that you have done.You bring color to my life!!! :D

For those who Praises the Lord through songs and hymns with me..
Your beautiful and angelic voices,your spirit to always serve Him lights up my soul and gives enlightenment for me to serve Him even more! One NAFIRI one VOICE!

For those who has followed me through my whole life,saw my ups and downs and,joined in to the roller coaster of my life,thank you always being there to accompany me and thank you for being such a good listener :) you know who you are :):):)

For those who've always supported me and helped me reach my goals that i thought would be impossible....thank you for always believing in me.thank you for never giving up on me.You ain't seen nothing yet,i'll work harder and i promise that i wont let you down!

For those who i've dissapointed,or maybe i've hurt this year..
i'm sorry,i didn't mean to do such horrible things,i hope you will forgive me because i'm also learning from my mistakes and i'll try my best not to repeat them :)

or those who doesn't treat me as a friend,for those who thinks and tells me that i'm not good enough,i hope that we could finish what's in the past and treat each other just as it is meant to be.I dont want to have any enemies,i want to make friends:)

And for you,the one who taught me a lot of things,helped me with most of my problems and never leaving my side for bad or for worse,through sickness and health (hahaha apaan sih serius serius) I thank you for accepting me and turning me into a better person.I know i can be selfish at some times but we still can work things out,i promise to change and get rid of my bad habits,so i bet we'll get along just fine this year:D

I hope this new year will bring out the best of all of us.

God bless you all,i love you guys so much!

sekian dan terimakasih :P

--tiffany