Tuesday, December 30, 2008

-_-

im sick and tired of staying QUIET,being like ms.goody-two-shoes and acting like nothing's wrong.because there is something that's really bothering me for this past (God knows when) time.im not the only one who's feeling the pain and i'm not the only one who's being hurt.Although i know that all my actions has its own consequences,but im willing to take the risk.I guess that's what you get from standing up in what you think and what you believe in.Besides,today i am truly inspired by the quote that i googled and that i displayed at the top of my blog : "The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually be afraid you will make one." -Elbert Hubbard"
and hopefully whatever happens tomorrow is for the best.Amen.
Help me God,i need you.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

report card

after eating endless martabak's and plopping several ferrero rochers i suddenly feel much better.Mum also already tried to cheer me up by saying "it's not that he doesn't appreciate you for what you have already achieved anak,i'm sure that he's very proud of you,he just has his own ways to show it.I've seen your report cards from your previous grades,and by what that i have seen today,i am so proud of you.I know you can do it!" So we celebrated by buying tons and tons of food and eating it at malabar,with tante seruni :)
I really dont know,either if this is one of my random moodswings or i'm just going completely mad.At first things were just fine until suddenly around 10 minutes later i was like shouting on the phone saying things like "Could you please just appreciate me a bit?aren't you proud of me?" or "Fine,i'll transfer schools or something,if that's what you really want!"I admit that i was completely shocked when i saw that i got straight B's! (except math.i got a C,but that doesn't count )
Sure,my report card wasn't that perfect,i still have some flaws in the (surprisingly) regular reportcard that we used for the national curriculum,but COME OOON! straight b's? that's total improvement from the STRAIGHT F'S and 2 E'S that i got last year!Okaaay i was expecting for a compliment ,so maybe when all i got was "you still have a lot to work on" and "i cant believe you failed this kind of subjects tiff,what have you been doing for the past 2 years??"instead of "good work,i'm so proud of you" i was flabbergasted.So if your reading this,i just want to say that i'm sorry.I know that every bit and detail of my report card is really important.So i'll try to be a lot better,for the sake of my future.There,i've let it all out.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

thanks.

Makasih banget buat nilai-nilai ku hari ini ya Tuhan,mungkin emang belom maksimal tapi buat gue ini udah sangat teramat amat bagus.Im the only one who knows how hard i studied just to past this semester,so i dont even care about SOMEBODY'S COMMENT who says that i'm stupid or worthless or not smart enough.i know i'm smart.i can do this.i'm just 1 step closer.i just need to work harder and get rid of my bad habits.you'll see!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

useless

14.45 pm,19th december 2008
mood:sleepy
current song playing :robin thicke-lost without you

looks like i'm still having those terrible moodswings...
note to self:better get rid of this bad habit!

God,i feel so useless.I've never felt so horrible and miserable in my life.Please oh please spin my wheel of life.I'm tired living in the pathetic side where i will always feel stupid and lame and horrible and not less than a person who doesn't have any life plans(amit amit).Why does suddenly all of the people that's surrounding me starts to come out from their shell and,most of them becomes this really beautiful extravagant gorgeous human being.

It's not that i'm not thankful for all of the blessings God has given to me,but after all i'm only human,with all of its own potentials and weaknesses.And i have those days when i feel like im hopeless.that day is today.

I've been educating myself with words of wisdom and tons of inspirational quotes about always believing in myself and never giving up etc etc but it seems that doesnt give either any effects or mood changes to me.

Nah,i'm sure that I have my own potentials,time will tell when will i realize and develop those wonderful gifts.I just have to be more optimistic in life.Oh yeah and another thing,GET RID OF MY LAZINESS! get your lazy ass up and start on searching!

FUTSAL

21:47,18th dec 2008
mood:moody
current song playing:if i were a boy-beyonce

despite the exhausting night yesterday,i woke up the following day with a huge smile on my face.Today's the day.Im finally going to play futsal with my classmates(fyi,futsal is similar like soccer,only its in a smaller scale).by 'futsal' means burning calories,and by 'burning calories' means that i could loose weight!:D
So,i jumped right away and went straight away to the bathroom because i really dont want to be late,since someone else is picking me up.

(by the way before you continue on reading the rest of this post,please excuse my ways of writing,i'm currently having sudden moodswings so i might change languages to indo/english for some paragraphs)

Otw to axc,im suddenly having second toughts.i was like "ah gue useless doang paling disana,waktu terakhir kali main gue ga berguna sama sekali,cuma bisa bikin tim gue kalah doang..apa gue ga ikut aja yaaaa?" but i guess its too late so i ended up participating anyway,meskipun ga enak sama temen2 yang lain.takut mengacaukan permainan karena kebegoan gue hahahaha..Tapi kadang2 gue bingung kenapa mereka tetep ijinin gue main,apakah gue yang emang lebay atau mereka yang kelewat baiiiik banget sama gue hehehe i love you guys:)
25 minutes passed by,dan gue masih melenggang di lapangan futsal dengan uselessnya.kalo dikasih bola palingan gue ga bisa nendang dan opernya pasti miring until suddenly gue ngerasa kepanggil untuk menjadi goalie/kiper.mungkin aja kan gue bisa jadi more useful kalo misalnya nangkep2 bola di gawang gitu.jadi akhirnya gue minta tukeran..Dan ternyata boleh lah,gue menjadi agak sedikit berguna dibanding waktu jadi pemain..ada 3 kicks yang gue blok.dan kalo ga salah 2-dari tendangan itu ditendang sama si ading,jeger abis kan awalnya gw udah takut abis secara ading tenaganya lumayan besar tapi untunglah gue masih selamat hehehe.waktu sekitar 15 menitan sblm selesai tanding gue masih jaga gawangnya,dan ada bola terakhir dateng dari anak2 science.
Inget banget gue bola itu yang nendang si widi,tapi begonya pas dia nendang bola,gue refleks nunduk buat nangkep pake tangan tapi kenanya malahan pas di TULANG HIDUNG GUE hahahahahahahaha(no hard feelings wid,tenang aja) sekilas gue langsung blur pusing2 dikit tapi ternyata gapapa lah (untung hidung gue pesek hehe) eh pas disamperin sesama anak2 lain katanya berkat tulang idung gue,bolanya malah mental lagi jadi ips ga jadi kebobolan poin deh:)seneng deh bisa jadi agak berguna hahaha
meskipun yang menang science dan humanity kalah jauh tapi seru juga ternyata main futsal kaya gitu ehehe ayo dooong cb main lagii main lagggiiiiii:D:D:D:D
Abis futsal yah kita do the usual things lah,kaya makan di gading batavia terus nonton film di 21.tapi filmnya yang bikin UNUSUAL.buset gue ga pernah liat filem se-pathetic se-lame se-stupid itu di hidup gue,tapi gapapa lah cuma 12ribu ini,mungkin emang worthit nya buat dapet filem2 level begitu hahahahaha ayo dong cb jalan lagi jalan lagiii i love u guys!

Sunday, December 7, 2008

kolam madu cap momma cika

ps :before you continue on reading it,im just posting this random post out of my constant imagination that i cant seem to keep to myself and just because of boredom so this is really sudden and out of the blue.

Karena tadi abis nonton twiligh dan kepincut sama si Robert Pattinson,akhirnya gue juga memutuskan untuk membuat beberapa posting about these charming not to mention waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay hot guys. (Daniel,jangan marah ya.i'm just doing this for fun haahaha) Soalnya gue juga inspired sama blog2 dengan topik sejenis yang dibuat temen2 gue seperti Kolam Madu Cap SALJU : by arinda and MOOCHIE VS CARRIE (kolam madu):by nadia Sabrina
jadi gue pengen melanjutkan posting kolam
madu,with a little bit of momma cika's touch:P



ROBERT PATTINSON

Ga tau apakah emang gue beneran tertarik,atau emang cuma jadi idola sesaat gara-gara gue nonton twilight,tetapi yang jelas this guy transformed into a different person since i last saw him in harry potter.Badannya ga terlalu muscular sih,tapi cukup toned lah untuk membuat dia jadi idola dan dikejar ratusan wanita.Yang membuat gue belom bisa keluarin muka nya dari otak gue (cie elah gue najis) is his mesmerizing smile :D mungkin emang gara2 di filmnya kebanyakan jutek jadi kalo sekali senyum jadi cakep banget atau gimana ya gue ga tau juga lah yaa haha untungnya masih bisa menahan diri deh HAHAHAHA AAPAAN SIH LOO TIFFFFFFFFFFFF



DANIEL RADCLIFFE
Sebelumnya plis plis plis plis banget jangan ketawain gue.Gue tau mungkin sekarang you might know him as the unattractive guy who has a weird sense of style because he wears vests and tight t-shirts or something tapi jujur aja sebenernya gue udah jatuh cinta jatuh hati sama dia sejak kelas 5 sd.Sejak dia main di harry potter yang pertama.ah gitu deh.His blue and greenish eyes.His brown hair.His smile.The way he talks.The way he laughs.Just perfect!Meskipun sekarang udah banyak ketauan flaws nya cuman ga papa ah ga ngaruh buat gueeeee (cie elah si ganjen) :D

CHRIS EVANS

Perfect,just PERFECT.nothing else to say.I dont know if there is any girl in this entire universe that would say NO to him.If so,then i bet she is really stupid for wasting such a great opportunity (haha no offense ya kalo ada yang ngerasa).i bet his big break in fantastic 4 has just been really successful and taken him to a new level in the filming industry,although i've never seen the rest of his movies he ..Btw,the other reason that i choose him is because he looks like someone else that ive been idolizing as well for so long (if you know who i mean ni,po ;P) Gosh,i'm out of words..



Okay people,i know maybe some of you are already disgusted by this post,or some of you have even puked (yes,including you daniel!)So i'll just stop typing because i'm really tired and out of words,my fingers feels like they're burning and i've got to get to my beauty sleep because someone's special is coming to my house tomorrow!!!!i'ts lucky that i have my own prince charming,and not to mention eye candy,that i can see and talk to every day ;)

cheerio

-tiffy (or in this case,mama cika..my special codeword for carrie and moochie!)

twilight

Sebetulnya gue nggak terlalu nunggu-nunggu banget buat nonton film ini,karena gw juga nggak ngikutin novelnya,jadi ya kalo emang bisa nonton ya monggo,kalo ga sempet juga nggak papa.Tapi akhirnya gue nonton juga hari minggu ini sehabis latihan nafiri,karena valerie,nataya dan kak esti ini pengikut-pengikut setianya twilight.Ditambah lagi denger2 cowo yang jadi edward cullen nya ganteng,jadi yang lain juga pada penasaran hehehehe :D
Pas nyampe di 21 udah telat,tapi gw sempet nangkep lah kira2 inti ceritanya gimana,tapi pas liat cowonya hmmm kayanya gue pernah liat dimana gitu kan,eh ternyataaaa dia yang jadi cedrig diggory di harry potter ituuuuu!buset dah dulu emang udah ganteng sih cuman kan agak2 cungkring gitu jadi gw perhatiinnya emang cuman sesaat aja..sekarang deh buseeeeeeeeeeettttttt badannya udah keliatan lebih toned,mukanya berubah lebih dewasaa aduuuuh ok banget (najis ganjen abis gue)
The story overall was really sweet! (ya gue ikutin story nya juga lah,masa liat cowo nya doang hehe) ceritanya tentang forbidden love,sebenernya ga kesampean tapi saking cintanya jadi sampe sampe juga.The other thing that i like about this movie is because its different than the other love stories that you usually see..Biasanya kan yang kaya the usual prince charming,terus cewenya juga cantik terus cuma ada masalah pihak ke 3 terus langsung live happily ever after.Kalo ini,cowonya vampir,harus nahan hawa nafsu biar ga makan cewenya sendiri pula haha,i bet it must be really difficult kalo ada pasangan beneran yang kaya gini...4 thumbs up!jadi penasaran buat baca bukunya yang kedua nih :) :) :) :) :)

Saturday, December 6, 2008

1st pre SATs course

Hey people
First of all,im apologizing in advanced if i might type something unusualor out of the context because im still getting through this severe headache.Gosh,i'm really exhausted.Just got back from my 1st preSAT course.I thought the first course was usually something more like a "pengenalan" or getting-to-know-what-we-are-actually-going-do thing,since this is going to be done in a weekly basis.Ternyata pikiran gue salah saudara saudara.The moment i entered the room,the guy that's sitting in the front (i think its supposed to be the teacher or something) asks my name,how to spell my middle name,why do i want to take the SATs,Which College am i planning to apply to,and told me to sit down.A few minutes after that,He gave us a booklet and an answer sheet.It turned out that today is the PRACTICE TEST DAY ,which means that we're going to work on different kinds of papers just like how they do it in the real test.I am so not prepared for this

SECTION 1 : essay page. There was this random quote that they took from the "7 pillars of health" book.And they also explained something about how important is it to dream and will you still be happy when you dont have one..After 5 minutes of doodling and thinking of something important to say,i finally managed to write something and think about something.Thank God.

SECTION 2 : english literature fill in the blanks and answer according to the paragraph stuff :no comment.

SECTION 3 : MATHS.i dont want to even talk about this one

SECTION4 : English grammar circle the wrong words or something,i dont remember.

SECTION 5 :i forgot.i think it was also something about english grammar

-------------lunch break------------------

SECTION 6 : something similar like section 2

SECTION 7 : MATHS.eww,gross.

SECTION 8 : english ,answer these questions according to the paragraph

SECTION 9 : english something,i forgot

SECTION 10: similar to section 9

The moment the teacher told us to hand in all the papers,i was completely devastated.Im quite sure that i didn't focus well enough and i think that i wont get a good score.Not to mention that everybody in the classroom seems to know and recognize everyone else because they go to the same school except ME. So here i am ,the friendless girl who eats at dunkin donuts alone and always 5 minutes early before the lunch break ends because i have nobody to talk to while everyone else is chatting animatedly. Whoa,is it just me,or am i really dramatizing on most of the events that are occuring?hmm maybe its just a case of PMS or something,lets just hope that i will finally get a good score and will finally have friends.

cheers for a good future!

-tiffany

Friday, December 5, 2008

5 random things(again,i'm bored)

Firstly, describe the current you in 5 words:
having a period really desperate

5 things you love about life:
fresh air,family,love,friends,happines!

5 famous people you'd love to meet:
the olsen twins (that counts as 2) shia laBeouf daniel radcliffe mischa barton

5 movies you love:
bladez of glory,rattatouile,harry potter,facing the giants,bring it on

5 professions you'd love to have:
Chef/cook, successfullllll businesswoman,celebrity stylist,diplomat,love consultant (teeheee)

5 best authors:
J.K. Rowling, Dan Brown, Meg Cabot, Cecily Von Ziegesar,Sophie Kinsella

5 inspirations:
Jesus Christ,Mommy,Daniel,successful people,Gramps

5 favorite stuff:
Cellphone,Computer,My teddybear,Pretzels,Creampuffs

5 things you hate:
INJECTIONS (najis ih amit2) Cockroaches my sometimes- hunched-back posture

5 favorite places:
Home, mall,mom's apartment,borders,starbucks near mom's office ;P

5 girls/guys you are currently liking:
daniel daniel daniel daniel daniel

5 things you wanna improve more about yourself:
BERDIRI TEGAK ,mendekatkan diri kepada Tuhan,makin rajin,LOOSE WEIGHT,learn to drive

5 things you would take to a deserted island:
Bible,Cellphone (With a recharged battery),Laptop,A vending machine full F&B's,my lucky bracelet

5 places you wanna visit:
USA,Spain,Switzerland,Japan,Rome!

5 things you really want:
Have A*'s in most of the subjects that i'm taking (minimal B lah:D) Loose weight, SIM,KTP,the ability to go to the US RIGHT NOW! (whatever that is)

5 songs make you cry most:
u'll be in my heart:usher
you're my safest place to hide :the backstreet boys
Mujizat itu nyata :religious singers
i forgot the rest :P


5 impossible dreams:
Turn Back time,Have doraemon's pocket,Be a doctor,Become an Actress (hmm maybe),Have superpowers

5 dreams in the future:
Finish my studies in Indo with a good score,Get accepted into COLLEGE of WILLIAM & MARY,Get a good job,Get married with my soulmate,Have kids

The rules to fill this are:
1) You own a blog where you're gonna post this to,
2) You currently feel bored,
3) You won't skip any question,
4) You're alive, and
5) You're gonna send this to 5 friends to fill these up.

ga penting.

just got back home from an extra math class in universal.Gosh,i' m really exhausted. Mana tadi abis ribut sama daniel pula.Dia ga jadi kerumah gue lagi.Padahal udah ngarepin banget niiiiiiiiiiih tau taunya ga jadi soalnya kemaleman -_________- ya udah lah ya kalo emang ga jodoh mau diapain lagi ya ga sih.Besides i've already done my dont-worry-everything-will be alright eating routine by taking a quick stop by the bakery near universal,buying 5 pieces of bread and mini-cakes,eaten them all,then having a nice big bowl of rice and soto ayam for dinner.So im a lot better now:) ga tau mau ngomongin apa lagi sekarang.Sebenernya tadi lagi niat nulis,tapi sejak ribut sama dp,terus sekarang udah banyak banget nyamuk nya jadi males.ntar lagi aja deeh,i'll be back!

--tiffy

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The "Special Grocery List"

Hey guys,
Yesterday my mom sent me a new email about this miracle that happened to a poor lady.I've actually heard this story before from daniel,but since i want to share it all with you guys,and the email also told me to forward it to everyone,i might as well just repost it in my blog,so that more people can read it.Be Blessed everyone!

ps:feel free to also copy-paste this article from my blog :)

"SPECIAL GROCERY LIST"
Louise Redden, a poorly dressed lady with a look of defeat on her face, walked into a grocery store. She approached the owner of the store in a most humble manner and asked if he would let her charge a few groceries. She softly explained that her husband was very ill and unable to work, they had seven children and they needed food.
John Longhouse, the grocer, scoffed at her and requested that she leave his store at once. Visualizing the family needs, she said: 'Please, sir! I will bring you the money just as soon as I can.'John told her he could not give her credit, since she did not have a charge account at his store. Standing beside the counter was a customer who overheard the conversation between the two. The customer walked forward and told the grocer that he would stand good for whatever she needed for her family.
The grocer said in a very reluctant voice, 'Do you have a grocery list?' Louise replied, 'Yes sir.' 'O.K' he said, 'put your grocery list on the scales and whatever your grocery list weighs, I will give you that amount in groceries.'Louise hesitated a moment with a bowed head, then she reached into her purse and took out a piece of paper and scribbled something on it. She then laid the piece of paper on the scale carefully with her head still bowed. The eyes of the grocer and the customer showed amazement when the scales went down and stayed down.The grocer, staring at the scales, turned slowly to the customer and said begrudgingly, 'I can't believe it.' The customer smiled and the grocer started putting the groceries on the other side of the scales.
The scale did not balance so she continued to put more and more groceries on them until the ales would hold no more. The grocer stood there in utter disgust. Finally, he grabbed the piece of paper from the scales and looked at it with greater amazement.It was not a grocery list, it was a prayer, which said:'Dear Lord, you know my needs and I am leaving this in your hands.' The grocer gave her the groceries that he hadGathered and stood in stunned silence.Louise thanked him and left the store. The other customer handed a fifty-dollar bill to the grocer and said; 'It was worth every penny of it. Only God Knows how much a prayer weighs.'

THE POWER: When you receive this, say a prayer. That's all you have to do. Just stop right now, and say a prayer of thanks for your own good fortune. Then please send this to all your friends and relatives.I believe if you will send this testimony out with prayer in faith, you will receive what you need God to do in your and your families' life . So dear heart, trust God to heal the sick, provide food for the hungry, clothes and shelter for those that don't have as we do. Amen & AmenDon't break this, please!Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive.There is no cost but a lot of rewards.May you always walk with Angels.God Bless!

++++++ I AM CLAIMING THIS FOR YOU+++++++++++

Three things will happen to you this coming week:
(1) You will find favor with someone you don't expect;
(2) You will be too relevant to be ignored;
(3) You will encounter God and you will never remain the same, Amen.

My prayer for you today:The eyes beholding this message shall not behold evil, the hands that will send this message to others shall not labor in vain, the mouth saying Amen to this prayer shall laugh forever. Remain in God's love as you send this prayer to everybody on your list. Have a lovely journey of life! Trust in the Lord with all your heart and He will never fail you because He is Awesome! If you truly need a blessing, continue reading this email:Heavenly Father, most Gracious and Loving God, I pray to you that you abundantly bless my family and me. I know that you recognize, that a family is more than just a mother, father, sister, brother, husband and wife, but all who believe and trust in you. Father, I send up a prayer request for blessings for not only the person who sent this to me, but for me and all that I have forwarded this message on to. And that the power of joined prayer by those who believe and trust in you is more powerful than anything. I thank you in advance for your blessings. Father God, deliver the person reading this right now from debt and debt burdens. Release your Godly wisdom that I may be a good steward over all that You have given me Father, for I know how wonderful and mighty you are and how if we just obey you and walk in your word and have the faith of a mustard seed that you will pour out blessings. I thank you now Lord for the recent blessings I have received and for the blessings yet to come because I know you are not done with me yet In Jesus name, I pray, Amen

TAKE 60 SECONDS and send this on quickly and with in hours, you will have caused a multitude of people to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and watch the power of God work in your life for doing the thing that you know He loves. Remain Blessed!!! Peace and Blessings...

hectic

im to lazy too study.too bored to be watching tv.i cant sleep,there's just too much stuff wondering inside my head.so i decided to write another post about something thats currently occurring in my life.

oct-nov the 1st : the Cambridge international exam.Although i only took mathematics and biology,it took me almost 2 months to study for those subjects especially on biology because there's more theories and kingdoms and animal and human skeleton and body parts and other things to be memorized.O yeah,and i screwed up on math.BIG TIME.for the second time.

nov the 2nd-30th : it took me a few days too cool down from all the stress,because i also caught a cold and have to just relax at home for a few days.the rest was just in a big blur..monthly tests,homeworks and tutorials here and there...

dec the 1st-7th : the first regular curriculum exam.there's basic maths,economics,civics,divination,geography,history,accounting, Indonesian and Chinese.I think i screwed up on most of the subjects but the only thing i can do now is pray and hope for the best.

dec 8th : idul adha holiday ( 1 day,still have to study for the upcoming cambridge exam)

dec 9th-13th : the cambridge exam for the curriculum report card.Statistics,Advanced secondary PURE MATHEMATICS,economics,and business studies.I haven't done the exams yet,but lets hope that i'll try my absolute best.

not to mention that i still have to attend the SATs PREPARATION COURSES every SATURDAY MORNING until mid february...

and my throat's not feeling too well which means i cant attend some of the choir jobs that i have to participate to.please please oh pretty please,i dont want to have my tonsils removed!

oh well,i hope that everything will go on smoothly.Please God,help me to overcome all of this.

wish me luck!