useless

14.45 pm,19th december 2008
mood:sleepy
current song playing :robin thicke-lost without you

looks like i'm still having those terrible moodswings...
note to self:better get rid of this bad habit!

God,i feel so useless.I've never felt so horrible and miserable in my life.Please oh please spin my wheel of life.I'm tired living in the pathetic side where i will always feel stupid and lame and horrible and not less than a person who doesn't have any life plans(amit amit).Why does suddenly all of the people that's surrounding me starts to come out from their shell and,most of them becomes this really beautiful extravagant gorgeous human being.

It's not that i'm not thankful for all of the blessings God has given to me,but after all i'm only human,with all of its own potentials and weaknesses.And i have those days when i feel like im hopeless.that day is today.

I've been educating myself with words of wisdom and tons of inspirational quotes about always believing in myself and never giving up etc etc but it seems that doesnt give either any effects or mood changes to me.

Nah,i'm sure that I have my own potentials,time will tell when will i realize and develop those wonderful gifts.I just have to be more optimistic in life.Oh yeah and another thing,GET RID OF MY LAZINESS! get your lazy ass up and start on searching!